Piz-zilla

Eva loves food. Most people do, or at least the satisfaction that food provides.

One of my first jokes about Eva was that she had a big mouth and her plumbing worked with tremendous efficiency--no doubt she was a Sutherland.

Kate was already a lover of Italian food, and I've only confirmed and strengthened the obsession. Tomato sauce is the one thing I have the confidence to freely improvise with, and Kate's come to have quite a lot of skill herself. Carrots, fiddleheads, even apple shavings on occasion--just about anything (except hamburger! Tasteless bane of tomato sauce) can become an artful and tasty part of dinner. (There aren't many rules, aside from common-sense things like not being jerks to each other, that I ask Kate to abide by: three of those are, If she hears voices in her head, call me (a joke from an episode of House); make sure Eva gets her vitamin C and calcium supplements every day; and never, under any circumstances, add hamburger to tomato sauce. I think I'm pretty easy.)

So we love Italian food. That includes making (sort of) our own pizza--only "sort of" because we buy the pre-made, uncooked dough, and buy our sauce in a jar. But we do put everything together and cook it, so it's more homemade than order-out. Besides, Kate's gotten pretty good at spreading the dough. Not toss-it-in-the-air good (though she could if she wanted), but much better than I am at spreading it out evenly so there aren't holes or rips or thick spots. She hated doing it at first, when I kept on foisting it off on her, but she came to enjoy it, and now she's pretty kick-butt at it.

In the division of labor, that leaves me to chop up the toppings, commonly kibble-sized bits of pepperoni and tiny shards of garlic. Aside from finding (in lieu of actually making) the right dough with a touch of sweetness, we have a few important idiosyncrasies. First, the shape of the pepperoni. Big round slices are hard to eat, because sometimes you can't bite through the whole thing, and it pulls off a bunch of cheese with it. Start with your pepperoni stick, cut nice, thick slices (1/8 to 1/4 inch thick), and then cut those into sixths. Carefully spread the thick little pepperoni wedges around on the sauce, distributing them evenly. (Yes, this is a recipe for delicious pizza. No, this is not a technique for making pizzas quickly and for profit.) Second, use twice as much sauce as is normal on a pizza. It just adds to the savor. Third, the toppings go on the sauce, underneath the cheese. That way they don't char.

So we've got this technique, and Kate says we're going to be the cool house, where kids will want to come because we make great pizza. That sounds OK to me.

And it looks like we're off to a good start, because little Eva is taking after us quite nicely. She has a real and unmistakable fondness for Italian food, mainly pasta in tomato sauce and above all else (even including applesauce), pizza.

Little Eva even knows the difference between homemade sauce and Chef Boy-Ar-Dee. Two mouthfulls of the Chef and she's averting her head. If she can develop similar taste in music...

Anyhow, we've seen her worse and more ferocious instincts come out when we serve pizza. The first time was last summer, probably early or mid-June, before I left for Louisiana the first time. We'd made a few pizzas for ourselves, Ma and Dave, and all sat down at the table to eat. It's too bad I don't have pictures or video to demonstrate what I write: once Eva realized she was having pizza for dinner, she began roaring for more.

Meaning, slamming her palm on the table and screaming "Wraaaaaaaaaaaaa!" at the top of her lungs until we gave her another piece. It was like the first time I gave my cat shrimp, and he reacted by jumping and yelling at me and clawing my leg, only Eva was roughly 200 times as loud. There was no plaintiveness, no crying, no coyness or amusement. The little baby was all aggression, trying to get more in her mouth.

(There's no doubt that infants go through much of the range of human psychology--pretty much everything except the sexual sensations, I'd guess--within the first year or two. Just seeing the intensity--the whole-body-writhing, face-contorting intensity--of joy, fright, pain, peacefulness and rage, is kind of amazing. And of course, Kate blames Eva's temper on me.)

So anyhow, we realized we had a little tyrannosaur on our hands. Infants don't joke around, when it comes to something they need, but in a near-toddler (at that point--she wasn't even crawling yet), it was pretty surprising to see basic instinct rear itself up to near-violence. It became a bit of a joke between us, and I started referring to Eva occasionally as godzilla.

(I've been searching for a good nickname for our daughter, since my father came up with one of the very best I've ever heard of, for my elder sister Julie: J-bird. Even better than Bops' calling my mother "pud"--that's pronounced "pood", as in short for pudding, not as in "pudley" or anything insulting like that. Anyway...)

Plainly godzilla would be a cruel and derisive nickname to give a girl. I might've deserved it as a small boy, but my mother's sense of humor was quite a bit gentler than mine is. In Eva's infancy, I called her "Rocky" because she slept with both her arms raised above her head, as if in triumph. But she stopped doing that so I figured it was time to let that one go. Sometimes I've called her Thumper, because of how she learned to crawl (from me) by slamming the floor with her hands, something she still does. That's a little better because there's a bunny rabbit in children's literature named Thumper, but still, it seems a little mean-spirited. It's not good to be too sarcastic with a child, I think, particularly in how you address her. Who knows, maybe things will turn out like in Dirty Dancing, and I'll just call her "Baby" until she's about 40. I have no idea.

So godzilla was mostly a memory, until Thursday night. Kate having mostly recovered from her mysterious maybe-Lyme disease, she ventured to have a small frozen pizza, while I made some pasta for myself. Things were a bit discombobulated, with Kate taking a late-afternoon nap and Eva threatening to blow up because she was hungry, so I gave the little girl her own dreadfully dull dinner while I began preparing my own meal (garlic and shrimp in tomato sauce--the key is to drain off the water from the shrimp so the sauce stays thick).

True to form, Eva ate quite a bit while I worked, and got things bubbling on the stove. She was done by the time Kate came to, entered the kitchen and got her pizza going. We thought we'd have a more relaxed dinner than usual, since Eva had already eaten and wouldn't need constant tending.

We sat down and she walked over to Kate, put her hands on Kate's leg and began crying. Only she refused mouthfuls of food when offered, turned her head away and began crying even more insistently. We put her back in her high chair and tried giving her a second dinner, with no more success, only a steadily worsening tantrum.

There are times I come close to losing my temper in return, when I see my child in discomfort and she resists my best efforts to help. I know getting angry in return won't accomplish a thing, but it's impossible to avoid the reaction. The little imp doesn't know what's good for her sometimes...

Kate and I were both worrying that this wasn't an ordinary tantrum. Kate herself might have been suffering from Lyme disease, and though it's not contagious, still, any vectors Kate was exposed to, Eva probably was too. What if the little baby was in constant; head-to-foot pain, and every motion was agony? What if she were in serious abdominal distress, and had no words to tell us with?

Kate took her temperature--twice--and confirmed there was no fever. What, then? Kate brought her back into the kitchen, and nearing her wits' end, placed the baby on her lap and gave her a whole piece of pizza to munch on.

Quiet. Blissful, immediate, profound quiet, as the thirteen-month-old girl wrapped both hands around the wedge of pizza, sunk her teeth into it, and began suckling. And that's virtually what she did--take occasional bites, and chew them, but otherwise simply kept her mouth clamped on the pizza, held it firmly in both hands, and looked me straight in the eye with satisfaction and almost a hint of defiance.

For twenty minutes nothing changed, except that 3/4 of the piece of pizza disappeared, and Eva's drool was now dripping off the bottom of the crust onto her pants leg.

If Godzilla were to run into a mountain range made of baked ham, and settle down to eat it for a day or two, the effect would have been similar. The Sutherland house went from baby-induced pandemonium to bucolic in less than a moment.

Next night, more pizza, of course. Because it was Friday, and Friday means homemade pizza in our house (as Sunday means clean-out-the-leftovers). Only this time we were wise to it, and devoted one whole piece (garlic included) to the baby, though we did cut it into smaller pieces (the crust being much fluffier than the frozen one the night before). We ate in front of the TV, watching Celtics preseason basketball (still too difficult to talk about last season), with their six top players on the bench and the subs nearly taking Philly down. (Philly's terrible, and even they know it.) And Eva was happy as she'd been earlier, laughing, smiling, babbling "da-da" and clucking her tongue like she does when she's happy.

And that's good. Because when she's not...

Samwich Fayah

I'm not above a little joking Down-Eastese, since I'm a native New Englandah and the only person I've ever known personally who genuinely spoke in such an accent, and honestly ended every sentence with an "ayuh", was from Cambridge, Massachusetts. It's part of my heritage, you never know where you'll find it, and humor generally involves a bit of affection anyhow. Things we truly despise we don't laugh at.

And besides, county fairs themselves are about as rural American as you can get, along with huntin', fishin', fahmin' and maple syrupin'. And that's not just to be cliche'd about it. Fairs grew up as exhibitions especially for the farmers. These days the midway rides, shyster games and cotton candy have taken over, but generally half a fair is old school, livestock exhibitions, prize vegetables, horse, ox and tractor pulls, 4-H and a bluegrass band or two.

I'm not saying anything new to anyone from New England, or from further abroad where nature plays much of a role in daily life. Last summer, working in Alaska, I was treated to the weeklong extravaganza known as the Alaska State Fair, just like the Sandwich Fair only about 10 or 20 times as big, and including a demolition derby. Plus, I'll always have a fond spot in my heart for the 4-H exhibit by the teenage girl about slaughtering pigs, which included photos of her picking up a blood-covered knee from one of the dead animals and making like it was a football, or a microphone:

Now that's personality. I admire that.

Kate's no stranger to the harvest-season fair either, having grown up in the general vicinity of the Fryeburg Fair, which ranks between Sandwich and Alaska, but closer to Sandwich, for size. (And for the record, I've never been to one of the really giant fairs in the midwest, like in Kansas or Nebraska or Oklahoma or Texas. All I can say about those is based on an essay by the late (and great) nature essayist, Noel Perrin. He wrote an essay on, I think, the Kansas State Fair, entitled "773 Prizes for Sheep". Enough said.) So I'm dealing with the pipsqueak fairs anyway, even including Alaska (which isn't exactly one of the breadbasket states). But still. In some sense, a fair's a fair and I've been to plenty.

Kate didn't go to any last year, recovering as she was from birth, and Eva still being too small and delicate to spend long periods of time out of doors. (Infants are a lot tougher than their parents generally give them credit for, but then again, why go testing their limits merely for the fun of it? If Kate honestly had no choice but to be outdoors all day with a newborn Eva strapped to her back--say, actually harvesting back in the colonial days--I'm willing to bet Eva would've turned out just fine. Even healthier maybe, for exposure to the air. But neither of us feel like playing with our child's well-being quite so aggressively. Anyway...)

So there's this fair. It takes place in Sandwich, NH, about ten miles north of the house I grew up in. Sandwich is a small--quiet is kind of loud compared to what that town is like--town just south of the White Mountains, and it's been deliberately kept almost comatose by the landowners there, who steadfastly oppose any road connecting their town to the ski mecca just to the north. Sandwich is dominated by wealthy landowners, many industrialists from Boston and elsewhere, and this little town is their retreat. There is a lot of wealth and intelligence sequestered among the pines there, so much that it's sometimes jokingly referred to as the "Athens of the north".

Growing up, I visited Sandwich once a year: for the fair. When I was a twerp, it was billed as "New England's Biggest One-Day Fair!", and we'd be up by 5:30, putting on thermal underwear, long socks and heavy boots, driving up bumpy old Sheridan Road in a freezing cold station wagon, parking along the roadside and walking the last mile or so to the front gate of the fair.

I mean, we earned it.

Now it's a three-day blowout, there's four times as much parking in the surrounding fields, and since winter has virtually disappeared shorts, sneakers and sweatshirts are the most common clothes for kids. Saturday, however, it was actually somewhat cold, in the 60s and breezy, so when a cloud came between us and the sun, it was downright chilly. Even so, there hadn't been a trace of frost, and it was so dry that the normally ubiquitous mud was nowhere to be seen.

Despite all that, the Fair was the Fair, and I hadn't been in close to a decade. For my part, after a big honking portion of fried dough and a cup of coffee, I'd satisfied about half of my craving for the fair, the other half being looking for any chintzy souvenir I might want to take home. But that wasn't necessary, since I already have enough clothes to last me for the next decade or two (unless I get fat), and I have about enough honky tonk wear for my tastes. Like my holstein cowboy hat, my fake-snakeskin-but-really-cowhide cowboy hat, and my favorite, my Kill Bill jacket. (Kate especially hates that one, guaranteeing I'll keep it.)

One honky-tonk... Two honky-tonk...

...three honky-tonk!

So I didn't need any more schlock. (Couldn't afford it even if I did.) After the fried dough and a tour through the arts & crafts, the rest of our time was more spent with the family: Lisa had driven out from Pennsylvania, and Julie & Hals had come up with the boys, spending a day at the Fair before taking a four-day hike in the White Mountains. (Julie's no girlie girl, but I respect how she's willing to do down-and-dirty stuff to keep the men in her life happy. She was upset at the thought of not showering for half a week, but I reminded her that everybody else would smell as badly as she did, so it didn't matter.)

Kate and I had just barely made it up, since Kate spent the entire week home, most of it in bed, with some strange, as-yet undiagnosed ailment that basically paralyzed her for two days. Possibly it was Lyme disease, though the blood test came back negative (though false negatives are common enough with that disease). So far the antibiotics have restored her mobility, but they have other side effects which have laid her low again today.

Kate's two good days were the days central to our plan: the drive up Friday, and the Fair on Saturday. I lightly cracked the whip--I don't give myself much practice at that kind of thing, so I'm really not much of a taskmaster--to get us out of the house by 9:30 Friday morning, to beat the Boston traffic. It's horrific on Columbus Day weekend, leading to 5-hour commutes from Boston to Moultonboro, and 6+ hour commutes from Boston to Portland. We successfully beat it, had time for a leisurely lunch in Concord, and then rambled on up to Wonalancet, a tiny little village north of Sandwich, where we were staying with an old friend of mine, my 5th-6th grade teacher, Chele Miller.

Chele was the first person I told that Kate and I were going to get engaged--in an as-yet unwritten chapter of the Pup & Ben series--in the upstairs lounge at the Corner House (my second-favorite New Hampshire restaurant behind the Common Man). She'd offered to put us up should we return, so we took her up on the offer and all had Chinese that night for dinner before knocking off to sleep.

Our Saturday wasn't too early, considering Kate likes her mornings in (so do I, but she really treasures hers), and it takes about an hour to get Eva ready for anything (food, diaper, change, play a little bit to settle her down). So it was moving toward noon by the time we finally entered the fair.

Eva, just over a year old, of course had no clue as to where she was or what was going on. But when she's stimulated, she shows it, and she loved the midway games. Not long after we arrived, Eva met a miniature horse, and a little bit later Kate bagged a small stuffed crab for her at a basketball game (and we both had to keep her hands off the merchandise in the arts & crafts stalls).

But maybe the high point of the day for her was the merry-go-round, which she actually enjoyed quite a bit. Kate suggested it, and I thought Eva might dislike it as too noisy and fast, but not at all (though she didn't love the saddle at first).

That night at dinner, at the Corner House again (right across the street from the fairgrounds), all of us Sutherlands and Platts sat down with Chele and spent a few hours chowing down and telling stories. Eva amazed us all by drinking a good honest 8 oz of apple cider (more than she'd ever had from a cup), and then more milk besides. (Kate's mother is right: wean the kid, and thirst will teach them how to drink from a cup!)

When things like how much the baby drank are among the headlines of the day, you know it was a very placid day. And that it was: enjoyable and placid.

After Wednesday night's emergency room adventure, placid was just fine. (And maybe the emergency room will merit its own post, but not right now. Suffice it to say, even ordering and eating pizza there is a trial.)

Sports Fan

Last year Kate became a Celtics fan, enough to understand Rondo's contributions on the offensive boards, Perk's ability to be more than a big galoot and Tony Allen's trick-or-treat game. In other words, more than a casual fan. We weren't able to keep our cable subscription past early December, so we only got to see the first few games of the season. But by that time Eva had become a TV veteran, with her daily dose of Signing Time while Kate or I were doing chores or showering. For 30 minutes to an hour a day, Eva would be stationed in her Bumbo six feet away from the TV, watching Hopkins and co. bounce through another day.

Of course, there was dinner too, which in the condominium almost always took place in front of the TV (including Roses & Thorns), so Eva would by default watch what we were watching too--either a DVD, or else a little sports.

And it became quickly apparent that Eva adored sports, particularly basketball and hockey.

And why not? Especially on a hi-def screen, the images are spectacular, there's constant motion, shifting patterns and constant rise and fall in the noise. The ice rink, with all the players drifting smoothly across it, is dazzling. And the basketball players' uniforms are as bright as ornaments, and though not as swiftly as in hockey, the players are in constant motion, gathering, dispersing and recombining later all over the floor. There's a lot for a baby to pay attention to.

Eva would jump and laugh even more excitedly than at the start of a Signing Time video.

I, of course, was thrilled. Kate was kind of happy too.

Fast forward to now. We've set ourselves back up with (less expensive) cable and internet service, including the local sports networks, of course. And today marked the final day of the Red Sox' 2010 season.

A farewell and thanks to two players in particular: Jason Varitek, captain now for nearly ten years and as professional and reliable a catcher as has ever played the game. And Mike Lowell, third baseman and power hitter who quietly and with impeccable grace endeared himself to almost every Red Sox fan--not least by hitting plenty of bombs over the Monster. Mike is almost certainly retiring, and Jason likely not, but just as likely will be playing elsewhere next year, as a Crash Davis-type backup and mentor, providing that vaunted and despised "locker-room presence". (The old debate: if a guy can't bring it on the field any more, what possible leadership can he provide?)

So anyway, we've got TV again. This afternoon, Kate took a few hours by herself to go bargain-hunting at a nearby clothing depot, and I set up my workshop downstairs and did other puttering-type activities. Eventually Eva woke up and wanted food, and she took down a full adult's portion of tuna before I let her loose and started washing dishes.

The Sox' final game was against the Yankees. The Bronx Bumblers came into today's game tied in overall record with Tampa Bay for the lead in the AL East, but trailed in head-to-head record against them. So the Sox, out of the postseason, could play spoiler by beating New York. The two teams split a doubleheader yesterday (both games into 10 innings: the first, 6-5 NY; the second, 7-6 Boston). So it came down to today (since Tampa Bay wasn't exactly helping itself this weekend, busily getting swept by Kansas City).

Of course I was interested. This is a blood feud. This is Lakers-Celtics. This game was not meaningless. By winning, the Sox could send New York to Minnesota (AL Central winners), a much tougher opponent than the Texas Rangers (winners of the AL West). If the Sox no longer have the chance to win the Series, then the next-best thing is at every opportunity to screw up the Yankees' season. This game was exactly that.

Granted, New York was starting a scrub on the mound, so their priority was to rest their best guys over winning first place, but still. Every bit counts. The Twins are a better team top-to-bottom than the Rangers, and the Metrodome is a tougher ballpark than Arlington.

I turned on the TV, so I could listen from the kitchen. And much to my surprise (and the little girl simply won't allow a candid photo when she knows a camera's in the vicinity):

I was too slow. She'd been laughing and clapping and jumping, watching the screen.

Later on, the Sutherland family enjoyed leftovers in front of the TV, a hallowed Sunday tradition from my own adolescence. And while Kate kind of zoned out, the baby didn't:

I mean, every baby starts out with limitless potential, and then winds up cut down to size as an adult, like the rest of us. It happened to me too, I'm fine with the course of life. Eva might wind up loving music (hold her in your arms and bounce to some music, and she'll start dancing too), she might be an intellectual, she might be a hard-core jock. She might be none of these things. It doesn't matter.

It's a whole lot of fun seeing her react to things she really enjoys.

Angel of Destruction

What might the vehicle of God's wrath look like, the instrument of worldwide devastation? A giant horned beast with shadowy eyes, hide like steel, a voice like ten thousand moans and wings which blot out the sun? A majestic emissary from the stars, clad in thunder and lightning, a voice like golden trumpets and swinging a resistless sword?

Or maybe it'll be 500 feet tall, have soft pink skin and wispy hair, and it will babble pleasantly and just blunder into things.

Eva of course is not yet at the stage where we need to punish her for anything. The extent of her rebellion so far is to look you mischievously in the eye, giggle and reach for whatever is in front of her (and usually put it in her mouth). There's nothing to punish. Our main job is to keep her from hurting herself (and the one time I've honestly yelled at her was when she was going for the electrical plugs beneath my desk).

About that. My earliest memory is from when my mother told me I was about 14 months. I nearly electrocuted myself. It's a bit strange. I remember it because it was traumatic, but what's strange is that I remember several seconds leading up to the trauma, not just the trauma itself. Why does the brain work that way? I have no idea.

The memory plays like a film in my head, and seems to have that ambered black-and-white character. Images are coherent and recognizable, but still indistinct, as if due to lack of color. One color, however, did stand out: bright blue. That in a moment.

I remember crawling along the floor, under the kitchen table. There was a set of keys there, apparently my mother's. I remember picking them up, looking at the socket on the wall (not knowing it was an electrical socket, of course), and thinking, "These look like they'd fit pretty nicely in there." So I put one in.

I could see the St. Elmo's fire around the key and my hand--the bright blue arcing--and looked up to my right to see my panicked mother running over to bat me away from the wall.

That's all I remember.

Obviously I survived, and you can insert any kind of joke you'd like (as a substitute for the you-must-have-been-dropped-on-your-head-as-a-child variety). Still, that's not the kind of experiment I'd like my own baby to try. So I really meant to scare her when she approached the outlet.

So far, that's about all the punishment she's needed. (Well, then again, you might want to ask Kate about Eva's tendency to bite when she's frustrated...but even then, it's hard to think that the little girl is trying to cause harm.) For now anyway, she's innocent, if not always happy.

The destructive power of a baby is pretty small, at least directly. A small child can start a chain reaction of things, such as pulling a tablecloth down with other things on it, or tipping a pot or a plate off the edge of a counter, or even pulling a whole shelf down if it's not very stable. When we babyproofed our apartment, aside from the standard outlet plugs and cabinet locks, we firmly wired our heirloom shelf to the wall, because it was a prime candidate for Eva to (a) pull herself up to standing postion with, and (b) pull down on top of herself.

Next after that was the basement door, with those steps down to the concrete wall and floor which terrify me. If even I were to fall down them I'd wind up pretty badly hurt. So even when the door was always shut, I mounted one of those security door chains on it, about six feet off the floor, so that even if Eva worked the door handle open, she'd never fit through. Now that the cat's back, and we keep the door propped open so he can reach his litter box downstairs, the chain is an absolute necessity.

Eva's learning lessons about behavior now, when Kate and I aren't even involved. Now that the cat is back, he's here with Eva. That's a new dimension to his life, since she learned to crawl, and it's one he doesn't really enjoy. I remember how cruel I was to our tuxedo cat Simon when I was a small boy. It wasn't that I hated him, at all--I liked him, but I also liked provoking him to get a reaction. And that's the problem with cats--they aren't scary. Even a moderate-sized dog, say twenty-five or thirty pounds, can bare its teeth and earn the respect of a child. Cats, not so much.

Eva is a gentle baby--she doesn't like pain so she does things carefully--and she adores animals. Every time Jasper walks by she follows him with her head and says "ki-tieh". And she's learning, with steady lessons from Kate and me, to pet him very gently. But it's altogether too easy for Eva to start whacking him instead, and grab for things like the tail, or an ear, or some whiskers. Or even for her to simply chase him all over the place, rooting him out of hiding spots and driving him from one room to the next.

I've got to say, I'm extremely impressed, and a little humbled, by that cat's patience. He's behaving like the classic floppy family dog who absorbs all mistreatment. Most cats I know would have stuck up for themselves in some manner long before Jasper has. And he still has all his claws...

Well, Saturday night things came to some kind of head. With the apartment largely secured, Kate and I feel comfortable letting the baby wander into an adjacent room, and we merely keep our ears peeled for either a big noise or an overly long silence. And that night, there was silence, followed by an explosion of cries from the baby.

Kate was in there in less than two seconds, ahead of me and she was diving for the baby on the floor on the other side of the kitchen table. I noticed the cat hustling out from under the table and out of the room, where we'd just run in. Eva was in a full-steam panicked cry, but we searched her face and most of her body and found no marks, no blood. It seemed the cat had done something to scare her, but hadn't actually broken skin.

And I thought that was good--if Jasper batted at her face, but didn't harm her physically, maybe Eva would learn to give him a wider berth, without needing to be actually hurt in the process. For the one day since then, she's seemed slightly more deferent around him, not nearly as quick to chase him down and slug him. In his reluctant way maybe the cat did teach her a lesson.

So we have this occasionally whirlwind little baby--one of her favorite sports is to flop back and forth across the couch, from one armrest to the other and without regard to the drop on one side. Of course, that means Kate or I play stopper, and prop her up when she comes near the edge. It's kind of Eva's version of swimming laps, or something like that, I suppose. She does enjoy a good faceplant into something soft.

So really, to complete the image of a gigantic infant bringing untold destruction on the world, the monster would have to do significant damage to itself as well. You know, level a mountain range and skin its knee in the process. Destroy New York but scrape its belly on the Statue of Liberty, and crawl in a bawling rage off to Chicago where it would sweep the downtown violently aside.

This kind of destructive angel would wind up sitting, job finished, in plaintive tears waiting for God to lift it back up to heaven where things are much less painful. An angel more self-destructive than destructive. Maybe not the most effective of biblical images--it's not quite as severe as the author of Revelations was trying for, perhaps--but who are we to judge the inscrutable?